My mission today was to get the girls pre-school supplies bought. I would have bought them the day we were given the list in June. I remember being in school we had to wait until the day before school started and there was never anything good left. I want to be more organized and not stressed out about this sort of stuff. So, I finally got the dough from Daddy Warbucks, or Scrooge depending on how you look at it, and was able to complete the task at hand.

I started at Wal-Mart which is getting creepier and creepier everytime I go. Is there something in the water around here that demolishes the DNA? Does Wal-Mart attract the freak show rejects? I don't mean to sound harsh, but there has to be something to this. When Stephen King needs to get his creative juices flowing, he doesn't go hang around a cemetary at night, he goes to Wal-Mart.

I finished finding everything I needed at Target. Target feels like home to me. I love it there. It's calming. I think they burn incense in there or something. If they had groceries there, I would NEVER need to go to Wal-Mart.

When I was checking out I saw her. She was behind me, and in her cart were Halloween outfits. In my mind, I'm thinking, "It's August!", but my soul was saying "We've got to do that!" See, in my heart of hearts, I am an extremely organized on top of it all person. But when I go to execute these things, my brain messes up the communication from my heart and it usually is a mess. Add to that, being a studen bum with no funding, and it's a disaster. I became so jealous of her. I want to be doing that!

When I graduate, and have my own income, I'm going to be that Mom that buys Halloween costumes in August. I will Christmas shop all year round. I will recycle birthday sacks. I will send Birthday cards. I will have the Better Homes and Garden house, where everything has a place, and there's a place for everything. I will have my oil changed every 3K miles. I will work out 3 times a week. I will make time for relationships that are important, and try to forget about the ones that aren't anymore. I will make sure my children have an unforgettable childhood. I will talk to the Dr. about my possible ADD problem. So, what's keeping me from doing all of this now.....hmmmm?